A fairly punishing week of brain fog

This ultra-racing game is taxing!

I’ve just come off the monthly AMA and wow, some tough questions but thanks for helping me open up and to be honest about how I’m feeling. Cheers to the crew who joined and asked some great questions.  

Now, I’m sitting here on the couch, exactly a week since my 100k, still feeling a bit had it. Long bouts of socialising or concentrating on a screen have been mentally exhausting. Since CCC I’ve felt like I’ve pulled up pretty well from a physical standpoint but the mental side has more recovery to go. I haven’t even been able to partake in big celebrations. This is not usual for me but I really tried to respect the toll that the race has had on me. 

Immediately following the event I tried to get decent sleep, eat well and rehydrate. But I still had some hard side effects with a headache lasting for a few days. That headache has since subsided, but mental fatigue remains. I’ve just caught up on my coaching and replying to messages of support. My apologies if for some reason I missed a message here or there. But yes, now I’m starting to feel human again. 

It’s actually taken me two days to write this Substack as I had to have a bit of a break at half way. This is the weird thing. I know I have it easy! Things are laid out and organised for me. I can take time to destress and enjoy some downtime. Most people that compete have to jump straight on a plane and are back in the office on Monday. Oh, I remember the spaced out feeling of being in the office, opening and closing excel after a big race weekend. Barely keeping the eyes open. Kudos to those that do it and actually are productive. 

For now I am still processing CCC. I would like to do a proper recap and talk over the learnings from this massive week. To do that justice, I will procrastinate a little more and save that for a time where the words on keyboard come easier.

But thank you all for bearing with me, your support on race day and this journey. Catch you all next week.